I
had been deliberately avoiding tuning in to John, somewhat apprehensive of this
suicidal drug addict, not because of his manner, as I find the most aggressive soul
on this plain becomes a completely different entity as they pass over. It is as
if a light bulb goes on in their head that allows them to see what fools they
have been. I had been avoiding him because I felt he would have a lot to say to
a lot of people that I could not pass on, I felt he would be quite needy.
I
set about contacting John when Charlie cat was out and about on one of his many
missions just in case John’s energy upset him; I was surprised to feel the
energy of a meek and mild mannered gentle soul, I was also surprised to find
out that he had no regrets taking his own life (plenty of regrets about how he
lived it) he gave no apologies to his sister for taking his own life, or to Charlie.
John knew his life had become an ever decreasing circle that he did not have
the strength to break free from.
He was calm and emotionally placid, extremely
grateful to me for taking Charlie cat on and had a love and fondness for
Charlie that I did not expect. Because of the fog John lived in most of his
life, Charlie cat was not always wormed or de-fleaed on time, he was fed
regularly… a little too regularly it seems. I had visions of both John and
Charlie spaced out in the lounge, cannabis smoke wafting all around them. John
told me Charlie and he would get ridiculous munchies most days from the after effects
of the drugs, his sister had already told me Charlie was on three large tins of
cat food a day! No wonder he is so big.
As I thought, John implied Charlie would
be coming down from the effects for some time to come, any help however was not
forthcoming, just a final vote of thanks as he drifted away from me! ….. I was
still none the wiser.
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